I'm worried about...

my future.

World economics is getting worse.

Enormouse amount of people lost their job.

Is it possible that I get a job which I really want in next next Spring?


I just feel nervouse...



my weight.

I'm getting fat obviousely.

I know i need excesises.

However, how can I forget a sweet little chocolate and my warm little room.

Maybe... next Spring... I'll start diet.

I went to NYC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was amazing city!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm from Tokyo so New York City was much familiar to me than Toronto. High high high buildings and busy people with Starbacks(but they were very kind). I don't have enough time to write down everything becasue I'm packing now. My room is now disaster...so I'm ganna write down some other day about my trip(maybe kkk)

Don't say good-bye...

As you know, I'm going to go back to "home" soon. I can't imagine I have spend half an year in Canada. 6 months ago, when I came here, I really regreted that I came here. No friends, no family, no boyfriend... too much pressture, too much English and too much ice-cream. BUT!!!!!!!!! This 6 months changed me a lot.

I have become little bit mature.

I noticed the importance of family, friends and boyfriend.

My English has been improving a lot(I still need hard work, though).

I became able to handle bunch of things.

and so on and so forth...

I'm not ganna cry becasue I want to say bye with big smile.

I'm sure I will really miss my friends and Canada... little bit teachers as well.

Don't forget me everyone!!!!!!!!

I won't forget!!!!!! How can I forget!!!!!

If I have free time, I ganna keep writing this blog so please visite me sometimes!!!!!

Don's classmates are for free!!

Thank you all your help.

xoxo

Ayana Moriwaka (森若　綾菜)

Farewell Party

I had a big party on Saturday night.

After this session, a lot of Japanese students (includeing me) who are very kind, funny and beautiful will go back to Japan, so our common friends held a big farewell party with approximate 20 people. We went ot a Mexican food restaurant in downtown, but it was very defficult to order because most of the name of the plate were written in Spanish. Therefore, my table decided to order the top two dishes in each section. They were very delisiouse!!!

I took a lot of lot of pictures with my friends. At the end of the party, one girl standed up and asked to pay attension for second. I had no idea what was going to happen. She asked people who is going to leave YUELI to line up, so I joined the line.She gave a little speech to each of us and gave us a present which I wanted ot buy before I leave.I didn't ecpected this so I was so surprised and it made me cry.

Seriousely, I wish I could stay in Canada little bit more. I can't imagine I'm going to go back to Japan. I could spent presiouse time in here thanks to all of my friends. I won't forget them forever!! How I can forget!!!! This 6 months was...is the most briliant time in my life. I really really appreciate my friends, teachters, homesay mom and my parents. I'm so happy and I'm so sad...

One thing that I decided is to say "SEE YOU" insted of saying "GOOD BYE" when the time I really have to say so. I hate to say good bye to my friedns. It sounds really sad isn't is?

Please don't forget me!!!!!! I will not forget you!!!!!!!!!!

Toronto Island!!!

I went to Toronto Island with my friends!!That was my first time to go there so it was awesome!!!! I was so excited!!




After we finished shcool on Thursday, we went to there with lunch. We planned to go to the Toronto Island on Wednesday,but unfortunately, the weather was terrible so we decided to go on Thursday. When we arrived at the place where we can board on the ship, there were already full with people and they were all excited a lot. I found one dog when we waited the boat. I love animals so I asked her owner to let me pet her. He allowed willingly. Not all god owners but, a lot of dog owners are very kind. I believe that dogs effect people a lot. They makes me happy if you like them, though. This dog was very funny. According the owner's story, she always gets scared when she boards the boat, and I knew what did that mean. We sat next each other and we was chatting little bit. But soon after the boat moved we couldn't chat any more. The dog started to screaming and jumpping!!!!! She was really really cute. The owner spent whole boyage to made the dog calm.

After we had our lunch, we moved to the nice garden and the beach. It was beautiful. We played a lot on the beach untill the sky dyed beautiful orange colour. I rearlly regreted why I didn't go there before!! I wish I would go again....

Life in Canada

I met one very very old linkled-face plump Italian grandma. She lives in near my homestay house and sometimes, I see her on the way to go back to my house. We know each other's face and naturally, we have started to greet each other.She always sits outside when the weather is good, and watches pedestoriands or knites someting. Every day, I enjoy imagine something about her background.



Two weeks ago, we finally had a cnversation. She knited something very beautiful. We greeted each other as usual, and she asked me something. However, at that time, a TTC bus passed us with huge noise which sonded like an old tired elephant. I walked in a drive way and stand beside her. She asked me a lot of questions and I also asked many questions. She came to Canada 35 years ago. Although her English sonded much more like Italian, I could understand becasue my homestay mom also comes from Italy and mom has strong accent.



When I told her I was studing English, she said "Keep doing. Keep doing. Don't worry. Your English is already good. Keep doing. Things will be fine." in very slow tempo.



That was very good lesson. I always worried about something too much; however, her words which had a power made me feel easy. Sometimes, I have a difficulty to have a conversation with staranger(I hate the first day of the school), but I can have a nice chat after I get used to the person. Although I face a very difficult stuation, it is very important not to worried too much and keep doing which I should do.


I felt like I saw the plump old grandma's life in her very linkled-face. Her gentle smiling face was very impressive. I haven' t had chance to talk with her since then. I hope I can meet her again before I will go back to Japan.

First Impression

I had a great time with our classmates and Don on Friday!!!!!!!!

Don's daughter was extremly cute!!! I wanted to bring her back with me!!!

His wife and her friends were speaking all together with smiling face and they were all very gaiety.One thing that I was surprised is Don had a mustache before. He looked very differen person!! Definitely, people can change their impression easily. Why don't we prepare our good impression just in case of the time when we bumped into a nice gorgeouse rich guy or girl on the street.

People can easily change their first impression to wear nice fancy clothes, to put make up, and to shave or grow mustache. However, I think this strategies for a visual person. If a person who meet you is the feeling or sound person, this nice looking strategy doesn't work efficiantly. So what can we do? Boothman says people judge others in 90 seconds. we don't have enoght time and we need a lot of experience to be able to figure the person out which kind of person is this; however, I came up with this idea. Smile a lot!!!(but don't over do it becasue it looks shilly) I think this is the best strategy. The smiling face can be attracted by visual person. The sweet cheerful voice effects sound person. This haapy feeling grab the feeling person's heart.

Once I saw a TV program which says when people feel sad and happy, the face expression is completely same in all kinds of race. I believe that if I smile a lot, the person srounding me become also happy and start to simle; therefore, I always want and try to be positive (this is my mom's lesson, thogh).

I think we don't need to be liked by all people because ever person has different tates. Somethims, I could not understand other people. That's fine because we are different person; however, it's better to accept the difference. What's the key point whether I can accept or not? I think the first impression play important role. I have a friend who glared me when we first met (I don't know why). She is accturally nice person, and now we are friends, but sometimes I can't accept her and feel very tired when I stay with her. I have another friend who smiled me and had a great time when we firts met. We are very different, but I can accept hers different opinion.

I think smiling startegy is very good because it works not only the first time. If we laugh a lot, it also can help to keep good relationship. So...Let's smile a lot!

Wonderful day!!

On Wednesday afternoon, I played badminton with my friends!!!!!! Accutualy, I and Chinese friend planed to go to Toronto Island but a weather forcast had said it was going to be rain on that day so we changed our plan. My friend brought two rackets and shuttlecocks, and we crossed our finger, "Come on sunshin!!!!! Don't be shy!!!!!!!" because Just before we played, it was terribly raining. Fortunatelly, after we ate our lunch, the sun came out! The grass was still wet, but I took off my shoes and played a lot!!

When we played it, suudenly my friend found some mashrooms which looked like the picture on the top. It looks like a toadstool doesn't it?? I never seen such a very very red mashroom before so I was really really surprised!!!!! I think it was a very similar mashroom which appears in the fairy tale. Don't you think so???Anyway, we played a lot, a lot. Now I have a muscular pain!!!!

When we played, one girl walked toward us and spoke to my friend. She was a my friend's classmate. When I talked to her, her English was perfect and she spoke with beautiful intonation. She was just sounded like native speaker. I was little bit jealouse with her because she said she was a new level 6 student in YUELI. However, soon, I figured it out she was a native. Right after I knew that she was native, my jealousy turened into confidence, because I could understand completely what she said. Before, I couldn't understand what the native were saying outside of the class when they spoke to me. But I guess I could understand this time it was just becasue we just had usual super common greeting conversation.

I can't feel my speaking and listening is improving. My seminer, pronounciation class teacher thaught me one thing. You can't understand what the native are saying becasue you don't speak or undertsatnd how they are really speaking. Once you get the point how they speak, you can understand well, even if you still have pronouciation problem. Sometimes I feel so guilty becasue I asked again and again and again. "Sorry?? Perdon?? Excuse me?????" I think I don't have enough experience with native speakers who are not relating to English education.

One more month, I really want to fix this problem, but what can I do??

I attended the lecture yesterday!

I went to the lecture which called understanding colour yesterday. I'm really interested in colour. Why can we see a lot of colour? What is the colour? Acutually I took this lecture in last session and it was really interedted for me and I found that I liked the professor so I decided to go there again.

I was doodling during the first 30 minututes because the teacher announced bunch of imformation about the exam. It was very important for students but not me. I already knew that usually, the most important imformation would announced at the bigining of the lecture. If I were a student who have to pass this cours I would liten the announcement really really crefully, but this time I just relaxed and prepared for lecture as I was scribbling funny British man on the margin of paper. She mentioned the test includes the psychology and colour which they already did before. I'm really interested in that topic, so I regrated that I didn't take this lecture before.

This time the professor taught as "chemistry of surface colour" which sounds very boring, yet soon I realized I was wrong! Although there were a lot of technical words such as "chromospherere" or "molecular", after 10 minutes review, I could understood what she was talking about. I think she is a great presenter because her style to lead the students were very helpful so even if I'm studing English I could follow her easily. This time, I couldn't understand why the students didn't reply the questions which the professor gave us. They were not so difficult so I knew the answere. I wanted to rise my hand!

She taught us the mistery of diamond. She explained why pure diamond is colourless or why there are coloured diamonds, what makes them coloured. It was really really interesting!!! I can write it down little bit about that but it might be very very long wrinting and I don't think I can explaine well like the professor did.

At the bigining of the lecture, the professor asked as "Who are you?". One thing I feel weired is that YUELI didn't tell anything to professores about we would come to the lecture. I think if YUELI requires us to sign up the sheet which is in NEXUS, YUELI should tell someting to professores. I heard from my previous teacher that there are limited special seets for YUELI students which professores accepted. If it is ture, professores might know about us.

Anyway, I enjoyed and learned a lot from yesterday's lecture.

!!CN Tower!!

I went to CN tower on last Wednesday as YUELI trip. It can't be a university report, but it was fun so please let me talk...

On the way to go there, the bus which I rode met an accident!!! Our bus and an Benz hit each other, and the Benz driver said he was going to call the police. All students stuck in the bus like half an hour because the Benz blocked the front door!!! The inside of the bus was terribly hot becausue there was no air conditioner and too much students. We escaped from the back emergency door to another bus which came to help us, and it was like a movie!!!! The bus driver said it was better to choose two big men to help all people to jump off the bus because the back door was pretty high from the ground. Two big studends volunteered soon. When I jumped off the bus, that two men hold my both right and left arms and screamed "Jump! Jump!!" and "Don't be scared! Hurry!!" It happened on the center lane of the road in downtown during lot of cars passed us!! It was just like a movie!!!

At the CN tower, two young men spoke to me. "Excuse me. He said he wants to talk to you" one young man said, pointing another man. The man who had long loooong hair and wore little shabby clothes seemed he can't speak English because his friend transrated everything. The long hair man came from somewhere in Europe, but I couldn't chatch every words which his friend translated in English. His friend spoke so fast, so I think his friend was Candadian. I greeted politly and then the long hair man whispered something to his friend. His friend said "He said you're beautiful" with full smile on his face. "Well, thank you..." I said. "He said please come here" his friend said to me and the long hair man gestured "come here". There was a little distance bewteen he and me. I was suspicious because he looked like little bit weird guy. The long hair man read my mind and he did another gesture "I'm not ganna do anything to you just come here please!" something like that as he was speaking something which was all Greek to me. And his friend said "Please please come." I said "I'm too scare to move. Sorry." to him with a frown. That was actually true because I was outside and I have high phobia. Soon after, the long hair man gave up to speak to me. He really looked like a some kind of nerd, but it might be my stereotype. Oh by the way, his friend was really really handsome...

The veiw was really really beautiful although it was too high for me and I almost fainted! I could see the night view because I arrived at there very late. I felt like I'm floated in the air...

When I lined up for elevetor to go down, I met a really cute little boy. He was like 3-4 years old, and he said "I'm a tiger! Garhhhhhhhhhhh!!" I really love children so I played with him for a while. He was a really strong tiger!

I was exhausted when I arrived my homestay house, but I was really happy.

Little Italy

I went Little Italy today. I just took a walk with my friend, but it was great. Every avenue in Toronto have different face. I really like to see a lot of face of Toronto. The area, which I went today, reminds me Quebec city. I went there in the end of April in this year. I do like the Europian style city so now I'm dreaming to go to Europe with my friend when I graduate from my Japanese University. I wish I could go there... Oh! One really really cute young dog approched so much to me on the road(*^_^*) He softly bit and madly lick my hands and he tyied to kiss me. I love animals. So sweet... The picture below is Quebec city. I want to live there!

Recently, I'm homesick again... I really miss everything in Japan such as friends, food, clothes, bath, family, my room and my boyfriend. Ohhhhhh I love Japan... To tell the truth, if I could I want to go back Japan now. But I know that I just have 7 more weeks so I should enjoy and study hard. It's ok when I spend time with friends but when I be alone, I feel so sad... Most of my friends said they don't miss so much. I think I'm little bit imature if I consider my age...but...that's the present me, Ayana. I think I don't have to pretend like "I'm ok!!". I really miss Japan but I know when I go back to there, I will miss English. Ohhhhhhh... What am I going to do in Japan...no English!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! Recently, I'm down...

Toront Blue Jays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!University Life

On sunday, I went to basaball game!!!!!!!!!!!Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Toronto Blue Jays V.S. NY Yankees. It was awesome, amazing, splendid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Acctually, I really wanted to see Matusi, who is a famous Yankees Japanese player, but unfortunately, he was not in the game. I heard he has problem on his knee now. After I bought "cheapest "tickes I and my friend enter the statium. I like that moment when I enter there. I walked little dark hallway and went through narrow steps. The wonderful stadium came into my whole veiw. An enormouse amount of excited people, green field, straong sunshine...awesome!! Our seats were on the most highest level and it was great. Even if it is little bit far from field, I could see every thing and every player except bench which all players were sitting.

My friend have a great background knowledge aboout baseball, and I noticed the difference between Japan and here. In Japan, some people craze about cheering. They enjoy screaming more than the game itself. But in here a lot of people were really consenterateing the game and enjoying screaming. I liked to here all people say "ohhhhhhhhhh" or "ahhhhhhh"together when the player did bad play. It was funny. Ohhhhhhhhhhh. And there were a lot of "wave". Of course, I became one of the wave with screaming!!

I bought Blue Jays T-shirt. When I enter the stadium I received some player's cards for free. And one of the card was a scrach card and mine was discount card for T-shirts, so I bought one $5 off. I wish I knew the players who are in my card. If I know a lot about Blue Jays, I could enjoy more.

I really wanted to talk more with a man who was sitting next to me, but he was a great fan of NY Ynkees. He looked like he didn't want to talk to me so I hasitated to conversate with him. Next time I will go to Ichiro's game. At that time, maybe I will try to speak more. Hopefully, both Blue Jays and Ichiro Fan will sit next to me.

B-Day Party

On Saturday, I went to my hostmother's grand child's birthday party. It was awesome!!!!!!!! There were 24 people and they said that this was just half of their families. I'm shy girl; therefore, at first, I was soooooooo nervouse. However, all people were so kind and I couldn't stop talking. The house was sooooo huge and soooooo clean!!!! It was like a expensive hotel(>_<)

One 16 year old girl was very interested in me so we talked a lot. Fashion, music, movie, school and so on...It was pleasure moment!! Oh! In addtion, she was extreamly beautiful...

One thing that I was surprized is that my homestay mother and I was late to go party, like 10 minutes, but nobody was there!!!!! Japanese people usually go on time or 5 minutes earlier so I was surprised. One day when I went my friend's b-party, all Japanese come 10 minutes before. That was funny(*^_^*)

I found one big cultural difference. In Canada, the birthday-person hold a party and the person invite otheres. Japan is opposit. Usually, friends plan a party and the birthday- person is invited. It is very interesting...

Game!!

Today, I and my friend start new game. We are from same country so when we talk each other, we always use Japanese so often. This is not good for us. We have to leave Toronto in 2 months so it's better to use English us much as we can. Therefore we made this game "don't use Japanese". The rule is that if we use Japanese, we have to pay 25 cents even if it's just little word. And today, I lost the game...(-_-) When we get a lot of money from this game, we are going to spend that money to buy ice-cream（＾ｕ＾）

My seminer class

Seminer class began!!! I chose "Pronounciation" this time because I still have problem and I want to improve it. Today, we practice "r" and "l" which are the most difficult sounds for me. I practice a lot during the class so my tongue is little bit hurt now...(>_<) Now I know what my problem is and I learned where should I put my tongue in the mouth. I'm dreaming one day I become good English speaker but I don't want and can't to be a "perfect" English speaker. I think the accent that I have can tell other people who I am. It's kind of personality so I don't need to be perfect at least other people can understand what I'm talking about. One day my teacher said "intonation" can also tell what kind of person I am so I want to practice intonation. However, I don't know how I can improve it or at first I have to know wether I have a strange intonation or not. I might have, though.

Anyway this is my last session, so I want to do what I want. I don't want to regret when I go back to Japan like "Oh～I should have spoken a lot" or "Ah～I wanted to do (something)". I'm little bit worried about my core class because it is little bit hard for me especially when someone talks or disucusses about business or economics or politics. I have a very poor back ground related to that topics. Although it is really tough to stay in level 6, I guess it is very good for me. Well..I'll try...

Okonomi House

On Friday, I went to Okonomi House in downtown with my friends. Okonomiyaki is very famouse Japanese food especially in Western part of Japan. Actually, my mother come from the province which is known for Okonomiyaki so I was really excited!!! Is was not Western style Okonomiyaki but the tatse was good so I enjoyed very much(*^_^*)

If I hang out with foreign students, it is very good for practice English. I'm not good at communicate with people even in Japanese so it is little bit tough for me. kkk. I came here to improve my all English skill of course it include SPEAKING. Although it is difficult to communicate, I knew I need practice so... I'll do my best!!

Here is the adress★If you want, try it!!
23 Charles W, Toronto ON M4Y2R4

On Sunday, I went to Casa Loma.

It was fantaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaastic!!!!!!!! I really love chastle or palace so I was so excited!!!!!!!! When I went there there was event. A lot of people dressed up old clothes and performed some old celemony. I felt like I was in past time. I think Casa Loma looks like Disney movie. Actually I really love movies especially Disney movies. English is not so difficult ,nor are there a lot slang and bad words. Befere I came here I always watched them. It was little bit sad because there was no time to look around slowly so I couldn't read articles in the house. I want to learn the back ground of that house. Maybe next time（＾－＾）